Friday, December 27, 2013


For nearly two weeks, we’ve been trying to fill our lives with distractions of any kind. Two weeks ago, we were sent information on a birth mother situation that we felt really positive about. We were thrilled… a baby girl due in April.

We rushed to the post office and express mailed our home study and family profile to the adoption agency.­ It was going to be five days until the birth mother would be presented with our family profile. To say we were freaking out that day would be an understatement.

Instead of hearing a response, we were asked to wait. Wait another week to allow her to decide. We knew we had a LONG week ahead of us, anxiously waiting to find out if we would be chosen. What a wonderful Christmas surprise this could be, we thought.

On Christmas Eve, we were again asked to wait. We were asked to wait yet another few days as the birth mother continued to make her decision. Although every second of waiting was killing us, we knew that this was one of the biggest decisions that this birth mom would have to make in her life. She’s choosing parents for her unborn child.

Today we finally got the news. We weren’t chosen.

Let me tell you… this kind of rejection is hard.

So now our wait continues. We’ve gotten really good at waiting.

In the meantime, we’ll be keeping ourselves distracted, and praying for God to lead us in the right direction. We'll remain faithful, knowing that He will provide for us.

We are so thankful that this birth mother chose adoption for her baby. There is a joyful family somewhere out there that just received the best news today, and we pray that they will be so blessed by this little one.

1 comment:

  1. So sorry to hear about this, Erika and Josh.

    There are no words that can make this time any easier for you, just know you are in our thoughts and prayers, and we hope you find comfort in knowing this is all part of God's plan.

    Keep trusting -- and keep your eyes on the prize. God has something really awesome in store for your family -- and sometimes these trials and hurts are blessings in disguise.

    All the heartache, all the waiting, all the tears, all the paperwork, all the unknowns will be worth it when you meet YOUR baby.

    Sending love and hugs,

    Shelley and Chris